7/6/2015 1 Comment
Om Shreem Maha Lakshmi Namaha
Since I was a allowed to find God on my own, which was around my freshman year of high school, I've been collecting sacred experiences and different was to connect to the Divine. My parents are truly amazing in allowing me to explore my faith. We use to go to church, up until I was about 5 or 6, then my parents chose to teach us about God and morality and such. At puberty, when I started to become my own person, I began study how God speaks to us and through us. We will get into the languages of God another time. Anyways, here I am 14 years old and I am gathering all the texts, all the sources on Source I could find from Wiccan incantations and Shaman-based rituals to Catholic Archangels and the Panthanons of Gods and Goddess throughout history. Needless to say, I've done my research.
Fast forward to the not-so-distant past. In April of this year, one of my teachers, Sally Kempton, gave me the practice & meditation for working with Lakshmi. As most people know, Lakshmi is the Hindu goddess of beauty and abundance. She's quite popular, but my first feelings towards this aspect of the divine is resistance. To me she represented everything I'm not: the soccer mom, the prom queen, the doting housewife. If we consider that everything is just a fractization of God or the aspect of Source Energy, then by judging and dismissing the aspect of God, I was dismissing, judging and repressing this energy within myself. Shakti or the feminine encoded energy of God, needs to be expressed and since I was refusing to allow this light to filter and express it self through me, I was limiting my experience of life.
There's this idea in asana practice that the pose you hate the most (nemisis posture) is the one you should practice everyday, because it holds the greatest gift, or boon. So I knew that by meditating on and surrendering to Lakshmi's energy would hold some delicious boons. My meditation practice had become automatic and sometimes forced. Again, from Sally's advising, I adjusted my meditation practice around Lakshmi to experience her sweetness.
Specific times, mudras, mantras, directional facing or what have you. I want this to be easy. I started with the Lakshmi mantra that seems to resonate with me. Even this process was already bringing stuff up for me. I was empowered to chose the mantra for me, I chose: Om Shreem Maha Lakshmi Namaha. Simple Bija mantra so it's not too long and super potent. I also, practiced without a timer. I allowed myself to drop into my meditation and stay as long as it felt juicy. When the experience was done, I was done. I didnt force to stay in it because of a clock. I followed the feeling and stayed with that till it was done.
I invoked and prepped for meditation with a small Lakshmi puja. I made an alter space (in my money corner Feng Shui style) and I would burn incense, light candles, fresh flowers, candies/sweets, the works. It was this new layer to my practice that I only did before for special holidays/events/ceremonies. Now, I was doing this before every meditation. It was an extension to the practice I never knew I was missing.
During the first couple weeks, I started "labeling" or identifing how Lakshmi was showing up in my life. "Oh, I have the urge to dust and vaccum, that's Lakshmi making my home more welcoming" Oh, I got some money back for this, or this is a surprise bonus, that's Lakshmi and her abundance." "Oh, I'm gonna wear these earrings to work. That's Lakshmi adding a touch of beauty to my work day." The more I acknowledge her, the more she expressed herself through me.
Here is what working with Lakshmi has taught me:
1. My expression of the divine must be birthed, must be created & brought into existence to inspire others ~ Tweet This. Lakshmi looks different in everyone because everyone is different. Shining your light inspires others to shine.
2. Trust. Everything in your life is a gift to assist you in path.
3. Small acts everyday become your habits and then your life.
4. Your heart does not lie, it only tells the truth. Move in the direction of your hearts deepest longing.